Goodbye 2010. So long, see ya later. Well, actually I dont want to see you anymore. Whew. What a year. Gosh, has it been only a year. I think I have lived a lifetime in this short year. Last year I ran in my first ever 5K. Had a great time. Was going to start running and getting in shape. Of course I knew life would laugh at my plans, because of my mammygrammy that I had gotten on Dec. 17, 2009. I went through the holidays in a bit of a daze. We went on our family ski trip. Had a wonderful Christmas. Brought in the new year with new friends. I kept a smile on my face and tried really hard to enjoy everything. I knew something was different this time. January 6th was the biopsy and January 8th I got the “cancer” call. And the roller coaster ride started.
But thats all behind me now. Whew. I made it. I am approaching my cancerversary, and I know I am gonna be okay. I wasn’t able to run the Resolution Race this year, like I had planned, due to a horrible cough and headache that I have been fighting since Dec 18. Why does it seem like everytime my family goes on a vacation, I get sick? Not just the sniffles or an easy cold, but I mean SICK. This year was no exception. I have been dreaming of the ocean since February 6,2010 when I woke up from my bilateral mastectomy/reconstruction surgery. My family changed our annual ski trip for a trip to the Bahamas. And I got sick. The day we left, I knew it was coming, I tried to stall it, no good. Ugh. But it worked out okay. I got to sit for several hours and listen to the ocean and feel the wind and sink my toes into the sand. And it was okay.
Note to self!!!! NEVER stop any kind of hormone suppressant or inhibitor or anything like that before you leave on a trip. I have been having some bad side effects from the Arimidex and so my Onco dr. suggested I stop taking it and the symptoms should clear up in time for my trip. Okay. Cool, I thought. I wont be walking around like an old grandma lady and having my hands and feet swell and not being able to stand up or sit easily. Cool. Lets do it! OMG!!!! What the @#$% was I thinking? Yes those nasty symptoms went away and I was able to easily climb stairs, run around with the family, well except I had a horrific cough. But the worst of it was my emotions were out of control. Yelling, crying, screaming, not pleasant. At least I was not near any sharp objects and I was on a cruise ship, so I couldn’t run far. Ugh. Not pleasant for my hubby and kiddos. But we made it through it and I didn’t kill anyone. The hormones are a bit more under control, and I am feeling less moody. So next month, I get to try a new hormone inhibitor. Oh, dear Lord, please pray for my family. Hopefully the side effects wont be so bad. 
(thats what I keep whispering to myself every night)
My last surgery in October has healed and I got to go bra shopping! I have some new “pretties” and I feel so pretty in them. And the best thing is, THEY FIT! I know. How cool is that. I actually have a selection to choose from. Totally cool. I am having to learn how to shop again because I am such a different shape now. I can wear things now that I only wished I could before. It is so damn cool. The best part of all this @#$%, is the fun new clothes I am getting to wear. I bought a string bikini! and I wore it! (Okay now about that extra few pounds)
Life is looking good for 2011. My hair is growing out and I actually had to go to the stylist and get it cut! My scars are healing and fading. I am trying to exercise more and eat healthier. (not that we didn’t eat good before, we did, just trying to eat better) My neuropathy in my hands is fading. I will find a hormone inhibitor that doesn’t have such bad side effects and I will be celebrating my birthday in 2 weeks. I am married to the most amazing and wonderful man and I love him dearly. I have 2 incredible kids. Life is good!
