My skin feels like it has little tiny cactus pricklies in it. ALL OVER. Especially right at my cleavage. It feels like I have a bug or something crawling on my skin all the time. It itches, but on the inside. Kinda driving me a bit crazy. I asked the doctor about this yesterday and he said it was perfectly normal, the nerves are regrowing. Well, I guess that is good, but it is making me a bit “edgy”. (okay insert another word if you want) Other good news from the doctor visit, chemo brain is real, but only lasts about 9 months. One down, um… how many more to go… what was I talking about. UGH!!! Very frustrating not to be able to focus or truly comprehend some things that are going on. And I really need to understand things. Laus Deo for my man. He understood it perfectly. Something about my estrogen levels and a new hormone pill, but only if the levels are, uh, what. Did you understand that? ARG! Focus, stupid brain. So frustrated. Okay, he’s got it, all is well.
I am so looking forward to a nice swim in the pool. Its been 3 weeks and I can now swim. Yea! The surgery site has been healing very well and I changed out the steri strips for medical tape. The tape is suppose to be on all the time and will help with the appearance of scars. Okay, so nobody is gonna see the scars except me, well and my man, but I am doing my best so the scars are minimal. Overall I am so glad that I chose this route. I know I keep saying that, but it is true. I have some new things to get use to , like sleeping in a bra, but my neck doesn’t hurt and I am no longer a size xlarge.
I went shopping the other day with my daughter and we found some really cute (yes on sale) tops and shirts. My brain, (stupid brain) just defaulted and I grabbed a few xlarges. Well, when I got home and we were looking at all the new treasures, my daughter asked, Mom, why did you grab these xlarge sizes. Unmmn I did, I don’t know, well it should be okay, they will probably fit. WRONG. They were huge on me. YAY!!!! All the other larges that I got fit great. I don’t like tight tops for everyday wearing, and these are gonna be great. But in the future, I gotta double check the size.
Chemo Brain Alert…. So I started this blog on Thursday of last week. It is now Monday. Uhhh, what happened??? Well, while driving to the beach on Thursday evening, about 2 hours into the drive, I realized, duh… I forgot to finish my blog about how I have a hard time staying focused and not being able to think clearly and ….Okay, so I had a good laugh, you have to admit it is funny to be writing a blog about not being able to focus and then realizing you never finished it! 
The beach was great. No oil, no tar, no storms, just wonderful beach! And yes, I wore my bikini and its too big! My man said he needs to take me shopping so I can get a new one that fits me better. Well, gee, okay, if I gotta go.. Hey, can I get some new shoes! Oh and I had to shave my legs. Which is good news, that means my hair is growing back. Okay, its a bummer too, cuz now I have to start shaving my legs again. Oh well… But my hair has really started to pick up speed in the growing department. It is coming in really well on my head and everyone is saying it is black or very dark brown. We shall see. I am still wearing the wig and enjoying that normalness that it brings. Been looking at some of the styles for short hair, I have never had short hair, and I am hoping to go for the Mia Michaels kinda look. Spiky, sexy, fun and flirty. Gee that alot to ask for hair that is only 1/8 of an inch long, but I am dreamin’ big!
