Early morning riser, I have never been. I have always loved sleeping in late and snuggling under the covers. Rarely did I watch a sunrise, except maybe when we would go camping, which by the way is an awesome experience. But here I am again, up before the sun and wide awake and trying to be very quiet so I don’t disturb the rest of the house. Of course one of my dogs got up with me. Came down stairs, looked at me with a strange look in his eyes, curled up at my feet, groaned and went promptly back to sleep. Lucky dog. Sometimes I am able to get back to sleep, but most times, not so much. I guess this is a side effect, but I just don’t know what from. So many things going on. But the sunrise was very pretty this morning.
The surgery, stage 2, went well and I am healing well from that. Still sore and can’t lift alot of weight. The doctor was a little bit mad at me that I was carrying my big purse around. So I started using a smaller purse with a longer strap, so I am not “carrying” it. It is just hanging on my shoulder. Yea, I know, I shouldn’t be carrying the stupid thing around, but I need the stuff in there. Oh well, I will try and be good….not. I also am still not up to pushing the shopping cart around, or lifting the milk jug and other heavier things. So glad it is summer and the kids can help with this. And its been kinda fun to shop with them again, well except for the new foods that seem to find their way into the cart when I am not looking, but hey, that’s what summer is for. So the soreness is keeping me up at night sometimes. Still have to lay on my back and wear a bra at night. The bra thing will be the norm from now on. Helps hold the implants in place. So I have been trying different types of bras to find some comfortable ones for night time. Its been tricky, cus I am not suppose to wear a bra with wire in it to sleep in. And really who would want to. UNCOMFORTABLE! So I have been trying the sports bras and soft bras. Found some that work, and some that don’t, but all in all, its going okay.
I have had the question come up, “So, what size are you now?” Innocent enough question, tricky answer. Its not like the doctor just put in a size “C” cup or a “D” cup. He had to fill the space that was there, but still make the shape look natural and normal. Heck, I am just glad they’re smaller. Gonna have to go shopping for some new clothes. Alot of my shirts are a bit big on me now. And thats a good thing. I guess some side effects aren’t all that bad. 
Another side effect that has reared its ugly head, weight gain. UGH!!! First, I gained weight from the chemo treatments, which I thought was weird, but the doctor said it was perfectly normal. Perfect. Next I am gaining weight due to my body being forced into menopause. I say forced, cus it was just fine and doing well before chemo started. I guess the good news is, I don’t have that thing once a month any more. Darn, there went my excuse to be bitchy. (like I really needed one.) 
So I am trying to eat a little better and have started going back to the gym for a very light workout. I say light because I still cant lift stuff and can’t move my arms fully, but that will come. I am walking on the treadmill and doing some leg weight training, but arms are limited to bicep and triceps right now. I am gonna have to learn some new ways of lifting, because I am not suppose to use the pecs anymore. Seeing as how they are no longer attached to the rib cage anymore, I am gonna have to be careful. No more pushups or chest presses for me. (darn, my favorite…..NOT) But I will figure it out.
But on a good note, my hair has started to grow again. YEA!!!!! So very excited about that. My head is starting to look less bald. Now my hair is still falling out, but it is also growing, kinda weird. I have itty bitty little hairs sprouting up all over my head, very exciting stuff. What color you might ask? My man says it looks black. I dont know, at least very dark brown for now. I have heard people say that when they went thru chemo or their family/friends went thru it, that the new hair came in some different color and usually curly. Well my hair was curlyish before and well I don’t know what color it really was, but we shall see. In the mean time, I am wearing my wig and thinking about getting a new one. Mmmmm….maybe blond?
